It has been quite a learning curve week of playing around and learning new techniques in GIMP. I am having quite the moment of perfectionism panic as I stare at my latest photo that has taken me ALL DAY to learn to do and still did not turn out how I wanted it to. However I did learn a couple of things and I am slowly but surely breathing through the panic and reminding myself that experiments don’t have to be perfect. They just have to BE.
Today, however, I spent the whole day feeling frustrated and annoyed at myself for not learning quickly enough, despite the fact that I had chosen to learn a technique that was pretty damn complicated. I look at the photo, and I cringe. I see only the flaws and my failure to get the vision I have in my head out into the world. And I know THAT is the ugly monster that is the unrelenting standards of Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder playing with me.
So I breathe. Slowly. In and out. I shut the door on the monster and I upload the photo to FLickr, where again, because of the compression Flickr needs to do when uploading, the result is not what I want or expect. I remind myself again…it’s ok. Breathe. This is not about perfection. This is about learning. And so I also shut the windows on the monster, despite knowing it is still prowling around outside…for the moment, I can breathe.
So here it is…This is Glitch.
I wanted it to be more like the glitch in a video of a badly done surveillance camera. But when the photo gets compressed in Flickr, I lose a lot of the detail. Below is the photo before I uploaded it to Flickr. The detail is small, but to me in this present moment…oh so large.
There is also I think, another couple of GIMP techniques I am missing out on to make this be what I want it to be. There needs to be a static of sorts in the photo that is missing. But for now, this will do because it is time I turned my computer off and ventured out. Breathed fresh air and talked to people.
I will say just one more thing before I go though…this photo was taken at the most incredible sim called NuNoX Cyberpunk City. If you get a chance…head out and take a look. You won’t be disappointed.